First of all, thank you sooooo much for all the good feedback!!🙏😊💚
I’ve been asked about the creative process back this project, so I’ll explain the main steps.
After months of intense therapies I learned to appreciate every thing I’ve created since my childhood. Every single photo, drawing, song… everything is a piece of an immense puzzle, my own puzzle. The first step was writing my own story. So I have a book, my own guide. It helped me see all the pieces of the puzzle. It’s the blueprint upon which I’m building up sergism. The thing with my PTSD is that timeline is not important, so I don’t work on it in following a chronological framework. I choose the concepts I want or can work with. When I have mentally digested those concepts it’s time for the next step. I pack up my gear and find the places.
Although I know the concepts I want to work on, I need some time to explain my story to the nature. That is the most satisfying and important part of the process. So I usually like to expend some time, even days in the same place. Talking with the surroundings before I start taking pictures is a must. It’s a dialogue. I tell my story to the nature and then she shows me where the pictures are. Although I have an idea of which concepts I want to work on, she sometimes makes me focus on other chapters of my life. I really appreciate that, because sometimes I get caught into a time framework, and she knows that I work better without it. It’s always a respectful dialogue, and it takes time.
She talks to me and tells me stories, so I’m always ready to snap a picture of her stories. It’s not only about me. She is equally important. We work together. We evolve together. She knows that when she opens up to me, then I feel more comfortable telling my stories. She never gives up on me. She respects me and my tempo.
When I have the pictures of our dialog I like to sit and let her help me with the edition. We also share that part of the process. I respect her opinions. There wouldn’t be pictures if it wasn’t for her, she always shows me where and when to take the pictures. So I do also let her help me with the edition.
Sometimes I take notes of our conversations that I later rewrite in my blog under the “thoughts” category.
For the videos I need some more editing on my computer at home, but hopefully I’ll be able to do all the video editing outdoors soon. The main reason for this is because of the audio tracks. I like to use both music I’ve already worked on before and new recordings from the places I visit.
It’s also fastest to upload content from home. But most of the upcoming content will be uploaded from the places where I create it.
In two weeks I’ll be working in Bodø. I’ve decided to work on one of my most recent wounds. The wound that unleashed all my wounds. A wound I know I will carry with me all my life. A wound that changed my life. But I know that when I start telling her this chapter of my life she will open up and show me some of her scars. Telling me stories through her own wounds. Showing me how she manages to turn those wounds into something beautiful. So we can embrace our pains together and create something unique. I hope to have good enough internet connection there so I can upload content as I create it.