Although I learnt to find beauty in urban decay, what inspires me the most is nature. It has always been. It’s outdoors, surrounded by nature, that I manage to be in peace with myself.
I’ve suffered from chronic pains, depression, sleep paralysis, insomnia, anxiety, panic attacks… for over three decades. I learned to survive. Wrong diagnosed several times, I did not start receiving proper help until 2017. But it wasn’t until the end of 2018 that I was diagnosed with PTSD. My journey with PTSD started actually in my childhood. PTSD is a struggle that can affect anyone. About 7 or 8 out of every 100 people (or 7-8% of the population) will have PTSD at some point in their lives.
I’m a creative soul, I have a huge urge to play music, take photos, paint, write… I have both sound technician and Art Director degrees, have experience in multimedia, graphic design, digital printing, graveyard maintenance, music, event arrangement… But being an artist ain’t easy at all, we usually have to have a work to pay the bills and find hours to work in our art. Rehearsal rooms, studios, ateliers, materials, software, hardware, hosting, licenses… everything costs quite a lot and there are a lot of quick hands taking profit from artists. I am so tired of other people stealing from my work that I’ve decided to go 100% independent. I don’t have rehearsal room anymore because it is too expensive, and I do now work mostly alone outdoors and at home. Every now and then I play some concerts, but not as much as I did before. Got tired of all the unpaid work. To be honest, I am tired of how art and artists are treated. We the artists have to deal with a lot of obstacles every day, the worst is the entertainment industry.
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